Oldtimer You know what's really strange? Sleeping next to him doesn't bother me.. I know in my head that it should, but somehow the sense of comfort over-rides the "should". I know it's unhealthy, though.
I'm struggling to get back that strength I was feeling a few weeks ago. I felt like I was really on a roll and then got scared and backed away from the direction I was headed in. Hard to explain.. I hope that makes sense though. Need to work on getting that back (the ol' "feel the fear and do it anyway" thing).
About the going out thing - yeah, definitely capable of doing that myself. Unfortunately I had already chosen to enjoy the cozy fire and have a couple of glasses of wine when things seemed OK... so once I realized I should be out somewhere, driving wasn't a great idea. I should've declined the pizza and gone into my room to read or something though.
As a side note - the creepy guy I mentioned just invited me and "any other blond women" - yes he actually said this! - to his baptism this weekend. He is Indian and trying to "Americanize" himself and thinks this will help (not sure if he is refering to the baptism or the harem of blondes). Seriously, this guy is just weird! Thought you guys might get a laugh out of it like I did though.
ST Yeah - tryin to keep focused on those other things.
H's mom is now calling him daily and being really pushy about him going to dinner with her. I'm guessing to push him to bomb me again. Trying not to think about it or assume things, but that's my guess. Whatever he told her about me must have been pretty bad - she's trying to figure out some way to not have me there for his birthday dinner. (I keep thinking fine, if you don't want me there I won't go - he doesn't have to rebomb me first!). Anyway... gotta put it out of my head.
Agree, it's got to be stressful on him too.
Working on that strength! I'm out of town for work the next 2 days then home for a day and off to the Sonoma DB get together... so lots of plans coming up that should help.
Dave Thanks! I agree.. wish I knew exactly the right path for me, but I'm working on that.
Uh yeah.. definitely right to steer clear of the guy, especially after the latest "invitation"! Creepy creepy.
Donna Thank you! Fishies are doing good... they are getting really big!! I can now see why they say each goldfish needs 10-20 gallons to really be the right sized tank. These two are in a 10 gallon tank and could use more room. They're a lot of fun to watch.
Puppy (well my 11 year old puppy... ) is doing great. Spoiled as ever.
jak Thank you!!
Not much new to journal, but wanted to at least stop in and thank everyone for your posts!
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
) is doing great. Spoiled as ever.