Yesterday was another day with little contact from H. He is still out of town and didn't call until right before D10's bedtime. He talked to her and then D15. I tried to make a little joke when I talked to him, but he didn't think it was funny. Still needs to work on his sense of humor. I ended the phone call quickly because it didn't seem good to continue. I was POed after hanging up because I thought things really aren't getting any better. H called back about 10 minutes later just to chat w/ me. I thought that was a real positive.
H called as we were on our way to school today. H seemed groggy and out of it so I didn't keep him on the phone for long. We will see what happens tonight.
Right now I'm running all the posibilities for Christmas through my head. My family is having Christmas on the 23rd out of town. I told H the girls and I would be back on the 24th. We have always gone to Mass on Christmas eve. and the four of us have a nice dinner at home. Then we spend Christmas at the IL's. I don't really want to go to ILs but I think Ds should and I want to be with them. My C thinks that I should stay at my parents for Christmas with the Ds. I am afraid to even discuss it with H as I feel he will think I'm trying to manipulate. For all I know this is our last Christmas as a "family." WTH!
