Just found out that OW has a kid!!

[Ophelia]

I think I'm having a bit of a freakout right now.

I've just been reading some stuff over in The Prayer Circle section of the forums. I was reading a thread where people were posting prayers they were saying for everyone who was trying to save their M. Some of them made me cry. I was sitting here thinking that I could really do with some kind of little sign that some of my own prayers had been answered lately, because I've been feeling pretty low with Christmas coming up and missing H more than ever.

Anyway, then I suddenly had the urge to check my email, which I hadn't done for a couple of days. I kind of dread it these days because I don't want to see that, "Sorry, I just don't want to see you" reply to my last email.

So I go and check my email and right at the top of the list is an email from H! He quit his job, and has gotten another one working a further distance from home, (it's actually quite a long commute). One paragraph of the email reads:

Problem with being on the Coast is I tend to leave at 7am and get home about 7pm and feel pretty exhausted. But I guess I could drop by and show you photos on Monday night after Oztag, since it's on my way home. That's if it's not too uncomfortable for you.

H actually agreeing to not only see me but to actually come to the house?!?

Then, as I was sitting here feeling a little bit stunned once I got to the end of the email, "Summer Of '69" by Bryan Adams comes on the radio. For anyone who hasn't read my ramblings before, H and I met and first became friends on an email mailing list for BA fans, the first day we met in person, we went into a music shop and he sat down at a piano and played "Everything I Do" for me, and he proposed to me when we were front row at a BA concert, and he was in the middle of performing "Everything I Do," (we were recording a bootleg of the show, and in the middle of the song you hear H saying, "Will you marry me?" and me screaming, "OMG yes!" ).

Basically, BA is one of our big "things", (if it weren't for that guy, we wouldn't have even met each other). So I was sitting here having read the prayer thread, hoped for a sign that my own had been heard, checked my email, saw H saying he can come over on Monday night, then a BA song instantly comes on the radio!! Like I said at the top of the post: freaking out!

I was already being an insomniac which is why I was checking out the forum to begin with. You'd better believe I'm wide awake now!!!

Holy CRAP! Am I actually going to get to see my H in about a week's time?!?! (that last smiley is because I know I'll be so nervous I'll want to throw up by the time Monday rolls around)