sues- Im sorry that has happend. but on the other spectrum, I feel like I don't need or want him anymore.. especially since last night...
Well it got uglier last night~ big fight.. and of course im the bad guy. I was looking on the computer for his laborer pay and I was looking at the wrong thing and I don't him he quoted the guy the wrong number, then jumped down my throat and started calling me names etc.. in front of the kids and the guy on the phone.,I got up and told him "im just about done with you" I walked upstairs and just started doing laundry etc. Then he started yelling up the stairs. I told him "you are 42 years old and you talk to me like you are 15 years old" You have to call me names, and for what? I don't need this anymore, Im tired of it, I was wrong, so sue me, doesn't give you the right to call me names"
Then of course his focus was on that I told him the wrong number, when it should have been how he handled the situation. so to top it all off my 5 year old didn't want me to come downstairs because he didn't want daddy yelling at me.
That just tore me up. I don't know what to do guys, im really held hostage here, even if i was to think about seperating. Im a Sahm so we rely soley on his income. Even though I do a lot of work for him at home, I don't get paid or anything. At this point, though I never want to hurt my kids, sometimes I think this is hurting them more.
He slept downstairs, thank the lord! I knew he planned to go hunting today, although i got up at 6am, I didn't get out of bed because I didn't want to see him. so I waited till he left. Hopefull he'll be gone all day.
Im scared and hurt and just tired of it all. This is supposed to be a happy time with xmas coming and the kids, and he is just one big a$$hole.
sorry, there was no other word to describe him.
time will tell I guess.
tal
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
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