Did you see the post from Always about the wonderful woman on the plane with her? You will enjoy it. I hope you will also see a bit of yourself in the story.
I think you already know what a waste of life it is to try to live in the past or be fearful of the future. The past is behind us and the future is not ours to live. All we have is the present moment and we have the power to make it wonderful for ourselves and others if we will.
You deserve nothing less and I believe you will make your life spectacular.