Thank you. I don't talk about OM and only mention anything if H asks me about it. I try to avoid it because I know that I hurt him. Also, I've forgiven myself for it and i've asked God to forgive me. Now I wait on his forgiveness which i know will be harder to get and needs to be from his heart when he is ready.
It's ironic because for the year before all this started i was sure that he wasn't in love with me. He certainly wasn't acting like he was, so short of him telling me, I know how he feels. That is why I try to be so gentle when I mention the negative because I know he is hurting inside.
I figure that me having sex with him periodically will hopefully accomplich a couple things. 1) it will make him happy. I'm doing it willingly. Last night I even started it. 2) maybe he'll be a little more patient with me on the constant touching and sexual intimacy as I try to regain the love i once felt.
good night all... thanks for the posts
ann
If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown
