I don't know if I should continue to DB.

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hunh. H seemed to want to linger a little teeeny tiiiiny bit. Made hints about how what I was making smelled good and looked good. Mind you, I am not much of a cook and H complained about most of what I made a lot of the time so I didn't really learn or try. I didn't offer him anything but I noticed he seemed to like an excuse to come into the kitchen.

Getting some *slightly* longing looks, too. Looking me in the eye, or trying to. The house is pretty w/decorations and I light candles in the evening. I like making the place cozier as H used to complain so much about how everything would make a mess. Now I just make "a mess."

But I am still sad and still have trouble imagining H making any effort whatsoever for me. It is not as if he really hung around any longer and as I said, yesterday he just really annoyed me.

Time for a chocolate chip cookie!!