just venting...

i don't know if it the pregnancy or just this whole sit catching up to me, but I'm exhausted. I just wish there was a switch somewhere that i could click on and be in love again or have some sort of attraction for him again. i just feel like crying. I think about going home tonight. I'll cook dinner, play with my girls, clean a bit and then put them to bed. Then what? another fight? silence? more of him grabbing me when I don't want it? nothing til I'm laying in bed and he brings it up so I can't sleep again? I just wish sometimes that i had somewhere else to go... Will he make me feel guilty for these feelings again? will he get mad because not everything is just the way he wants it? the more and more he yells again, the more and more i expect things to go back to their worst. Can i take that again? i don't know... \:\( i just feel hopeless today.

If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown

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