I'm sorry. I understand your feelings. Unfortunately I truly do.
Don't worry about what you said was writing a book. I think every one of my posts is a book! Glad you could get it all out.
It's strange how you say that your H was so controlling when you were first married and now you are so independent now. I had the opposite. I lost my independence with H. I don't know how I let it happen.....fear of losing him I guess. I think that fear has stopped me from doing a lot of things when it comes to H. I should have listened to my friend years ago who said.....Sue, where is the strong, independent person I knew?.....she's gone. I need to find her again.
Have a good day. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
SueS
ME: 42, H: 42, D6 Together: 18 yrs. Married: 15 yrs. Attended Retrouvaille - December 2009 Status: Working on it day by day