Penny..Thanks.. he's ok today.. home for a little while..Hope your doing great today..
yoyo...I know you know exactly what im saying:)
lwb.. good morning and thanks for stopping by..and yes its very hard to ignore.
saffie.. Thanks for stopping.. Was thinking about you this morning.. Im sending some strength your way for Friday!
quiet here.. boys will have their picture taken at sears today or christmas.. that will be interesting.. H will be gone all wkend long, working on a bridge.. will have to find some stuff to do to keep myself busy.
Hope everyone has a great day!!
tal
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
well the pics didn't happen, got all the way there and my 2 year old freaked out and cried the whole time.. so no pictures will have to do myself. I think he's getting sick again...Plus my H is working a 30 hour shift so I will be without any kind of help (not that he really does anyway).. i think if s2 is feeling better tomorrow we will go xmas shopping.. we will see..
have a good nite.
tal
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Have really been weird the last two days...Not depressed but just thinking of how things would have been if I didn't get married so young... I know stop thinking in the past.. I know.. but I wish I knew then what I know now.. I definately wouldn't have gotten married so young.. I was really stupid.
My h was extremely controlling when we got married (should of had a clue then) and very jealous.. of course over time this changed and he's not like that anymore, but im differentt too.. Much much more independant... and sometimes I feel I just don't need him in my life because of all the bad things he does and continues to do, you guys don't even know the half of it. Although he is better, sometimes I just don't think he knows me or wants to know me. Im just a figure in his life that takes care of his kids etc..
Anyways, I know that's in the past, but its like what the heck was I thinking I could have been with someone who was respectful and loving and loved me for me.. but I can't dwell I guess.. My father didn't even go to my wedding because he didn't approve.. should have listened to him.
On top of it.. today I found a charge on the bank statement for the movies... he never goes by himself.. wth?? I asked and he got mad and hung up.. I wasn't mean or anything, he got defensive.. so what's the big deal.. I just don't want to be back where I started.
In my heart I am lonley..
Sorry to write a book... if you got this far.. thanks.
tal
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
TAL, Hugs to you. Take care of yourself. Do things you like to do. Try not let your world revolve around him. I know that is so hard, but it is necessary.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
I'm sorry. I understand your feelings. Unfortunately I truly do.
Don't worry about what you said was writing a book. I think every one of my posts is a book! Glad you could get it all out.
It's strange how you say that your H was so controlling when you were first married and now you are so independent now. I had the opposite. I lost my independence with H. I don't know how I let it happen.....fear of losing him I guess. I think that fear has stopped me from doing a lot of things when it comes to H. I should have listened to my friend years ago who said.....Sue, where is the strong, independent person I knew?.....she's gone. I need to find her again.
Have a good day. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
SueS
ME: 42, H: 42, D6 Together: 18 yrs. Married: 15 yrs. Attended Retrouvaille - December 2009 Status: Working on it day by day
I could have been with someone who was respectful and loving and loved me for me.. but I can't dwell I guess.. My father didn't even go to my wedding because he didn't approve.. should have listened to him.