LFL, I know for me it goes beyond the kids, that there's this loyalty factor that's mixed into the equation ( this was discussed just recently somewhere here). Weird stuff.
I know that's true. I am surprised I still had any loyalty to him after the bomb ...but I did. It felt "right" to get back together even after everything that happened. I still loved him and he loved me. In our own way I guess. It's not ideal but it is real and it is good for our children. I know it is in my heart (and my head). We never fight in front of them and we are very affectionate. Out biggest issues now still remain in the bedroom which the kids don't see anyways, so... I'll just keep plugging away at the M until I feel like I just can't plug anymore. Will I ever feel that way? I just don't know. The unknown is the worst.
