So I get an email from H today and he is really down on himself for last night. He said he didn't tell me about the concert because he knew I would be upset that he was going. Not who he was going with. He swears they are just friends and there is no one else but me. He says he has failed me as a husband, lover, father and now as a friend. And yesterday he was reaching out to me and he failed at that too. He hoped I could reply to him.
So i did. And now he is hopeful that we can get our marriage back on track. But the problem with that is where I am living at the moment. I libe in the family home but it is also on the same farm as our business partner. A lot of the problems started with the farm and business. So he does't want to be here but knows that I can't just live on the streets with our kids. I know you will think just move.
It's not that simple. He has been up and down and back and forth for 3 months now. I am scared to uproot my family just to have him change his mind again. And if I stay here how the heck do we work on things? it's a catch 22.
Do i believe him or just validate that he is feeling that way today and leave it alone?
Me:32 H: 34 T: 12 YEARS M: ALMOST 5 S: 8 D: 4 S: 14 (OTHER R) SEPERATED: 03/09/07 (but wanted to work on it) NEW SEPERATION: 27/11/07 (doesn't know what he wants) MOVED HOME 12/01/08 I'm acting as if this blue sky is never going to rain down on me....Sara Evans