Well, about Friday I had detached at least a little and was feeling good about things. And I was especially pleased with the last few times I talked with WAW. But ,I learned that I get a bit down on Sunday. I know it has to do with going to church with 5D and wanting WAW there with us, etc... I think that carries me into Monday down a bit. Another hard thing for me is events, learning about myself, trying so hard to learn about mistakes of pass to not repeat, or simply GAL make me feel as if we could reconcile and even that I might be 'ready'. Like vivid reconcilation dream I had last night. It felt so real. Yet, I woke. I need to remember it has to do with her and her feelings. So, it is hard because I have to remind myself that whatever I want to do, it must wait because she has not initiated contact and thus is unwilling now.
