I have the same problem. I wear my emotions on my sleave and my heart gets in the way of my head all the time.
It is very difficult to do what we know we should do when everything in your heart is telling you that you should call her or something.
I am trying to tell myself that when we do not contact them we are just respecting their wishes and we are not doing "nothing". We are not giving up on the M but just respecting her wishes. I also tell myself that I might have had a part in failing our R but I will not fail the M. I will always seek reconciliation in whatever way that she will allow me to. Unfortunately they have all the decision making power in where the R goes right now.
ME-30 WAW-28 T-12yrs M-5yrs no kids Bomb 10/1/07 S-10/1/07
