Im'e just so worried about H's Mom. I feel And H does now too after this weekend, that MIL can not stay by herself much longer. The only thing is H has 5 sibling and only 1 helps us with his mom. The rest seem to think that by seeing his dad at the home one or two times a week that they have done a stroke of bussiness. 1 sibling doesn't even do that, she just pretends niether one of them exists and she lives right next door to us and could be helping.
I feel as if we are slipping backwards. We have not gone on a date in 2 months now and i have mentioned it 3 times so it's not like i haven't asked. Even yesterday when he got done hunting he said he wanted to go see his dad, i thought that maybe we could do something after but before i asked him he told me that he asked his mom and my daughter to go with us so that ended that idea.WTF
H hasn't even been home that much. He went for a week to Illionois hunting, and has hunted everyday off since he got back which was ok with me but, give me some time. Thats just the example, it just feels like he's distancing somewhat. He works his 12 hour shift today and tomorrow and leaves tomorrow nite to go down south until Thursday nite then works his weekend 12 hour this weekend. So im'e on my own for another week. Iv'e made plans for me and im'e not going to tell him. Just won't be home thats all. (make him wonder)
Guess i have to detach a lot more again. Let him see that i might not be there again, because if something doesn't give shortly i might not.
Have i said how tired i am?
I know he is probobly haveing a hard time with his parents but he does have a marraige he said he wants. But has not made much of an effort to work on it with me, just keeps brushing everything under the rug thinking it will go away i feel.
Just so frustrated!!!!
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
