Please get and read 'Learned Optimism' and 'Authentic Happiness' by Martin Seligman. Read them as you sit next to your H whilst he watches the television. They are great at teaching yourself how to change your mind set. You do need to try and act on them though - not just read them and let it go in one ear and out the other.
My H is just the same in that he sees spending time together watching the tv as quality time together - I think it stinks and is a complete waste of time.
I think you would be much better getting some Cognitive Behavioural Therapy rather than takink AD's. You need to understand why you feel like you do and get to the point where you discover what you can do about it. You also need to be able to percieve how your H views your actions.
Like you I have considered being a WAW. I have never become involved with anyone else and I love my H, but at times I do have trouble stomaching his behaviour.
Saffie
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
