What Now

[grdn24grl]

Cudos to the LRT!!! I have not contacted him since his blow up Friday night about going to file, something that was very hard for me especially yesterday (12/2). Just after midnight he called to wish me happy December 3, (he said he wanted to wait to call until then). H sounded quite somber. Well I remembered LRT to be upbeat, and short with answers and I think he was astounded. He said, "Friday you didn't want me to get off the phone and now your pushing me off." I told him I was thinking things through and realized it's time to take care of me, something I hadn't done in quite some time. He asked what book I'd been reading, I said I wasn't. H said "well I'm going to take off my clothes and get into that big bed all alone," I didn't really respond. Then he asked me to come over. We got off the phone and I gathered my thoughts. I remembered in DR (pg 292), "If you're separated & he seems interested. . ., go for it. . .Sometimes being sexual reminds people of the love they have for their partners. . .Making love may be just what it takes to remind your spouse that your marriage is worth keeping" I did go over, had a romp, laid with him for a little bit, then left. No I love you, no I miss you, no R talk. I wished him happy December 3, he squeezed my hand almost to not let me go, I kissed his forehead and left. And I don't regret it. I actually feel great!