NikkiB #22 (almost separated)

[S.T. _I Made It!]

I'm sorry you had some confusing convos with H. Just focus on other stuff right now, and who cares what it all means. Your goals should still be the same anyways so what would it change.

Now for me, I did not have a problem sleeping next to someone (as OT pictured) but you need to do what is right for you.. and I agree you need to get out of that room.

maybe your right that he told his fam a while back that he was done, and you know how family is on trying to make the person happy (just like your mom) and tell them how much better they'd be w/o them and etc(even though they really know crap about the R). but in the meantime he's gotten confused again and has prolonged his decision-again- because he really doesn't know what in the heck he wants still. I mean, think of what this is doing to his brain. This whole time, you've pretty much known what you want... for you and your H to have a good and healthy R in M....but he's never known what he wants. That would be pretty stressful I think. I'm sorry, I think I had a bigger point, but got distracted and forgot.

I think you need to get moved in that room asap. Do what you plan though, don't change what you've been doing because of that conversation. Be flirty, be hot, be unavailable (and this weekend is okay, just don't do it every weekend) have fun, love your new room, and keep your pma up for sure.

don't worry... my H had lots of stuff going on that made me think about it incessantly and drove me crazy too, so I understand.

gotta go... talk to you soon