Ouch! Thought I was so much stronger!

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Its hard for me to GAL because I have D every weekend. I cant go with friends etc becuase I have D. In addition, I feel guilty leaving D with her grandparents so I can do stuff with friends because I dont get to see her very often.

I see my W out living it up with friends (she's very outgoing, Im more of an introvert) and it makes me feel worthless.

I know I need to "man up" but my self esteem is so shot right now. I think thats why I got with girls after W first left me, I needed to feel wanted and attractive. I dont want to go down that path again and ruin any chance of reconciliation with W though.