Thanks Ford..I get it.

So lately W has been haning out with lots of friends when in the past (when we were dating a few months ago) she preferred to stay home.

Is she just living some fantasy party lifestyle because she is depressed? Perhaps she is filling the void by not having OM around as he is in Vegas..

Part of me is scared of letting go because if she does come back around in time, I wont want her and the vicious cycle will continue.

I know I sound desperate, I cant deny I feel that way. :-(

Hurtin: 32
WAW: 30
D: 8
Bomb: 10/05
Sep: 12/05
Back together 8/07
Bomb (OM): 11/07
Filed for D (me): 12/07