I"m in agony here...

[bombardier50]

Rysmom,
These message boards are great, but I wish there was a way to reach through the computer and give people a hug when they really need it. I know you heart is broken, but try not to beat yourself up too much. We all make decisions that at the time seem to make sense, but later seem like huge mistakes. I've done the same thing, over and over. I wish I could go back in time and fix so much.

Please promise me you will talk to a DB coach as soon as you can. You will feel better...much better.