Yes I was more or less attacked and made to feel bad about where I was at. But to be honest I wanted the best of both worlds back then. I have gotten my head out of the clouds and realized that I do have to make a chioce and no matter how hard that choice is it is mine and nobody else can make it for me. That is one of the big reasons that I went back to counseling, to try and figure out what I wanted not what everybody else is telling me what I want. Now before this last weekend and before my H and I had a serious talk I was ready to leave him, no questions asked. I did not care how much he has change or how much he says that he is going to change. But I seen the vulnerable side of him that I have not seen in quite sometime. I even came out and told him that I was done and was ready to leave him. I was tired of working alone and had no support. I even told him that I was not sure if I even loved him any more. I have thrown somethings at him that he threw at my while he was having his A, I know don't bring up past pain and things that happened in the past, BAD BAD BAD. That is some thing that I really have to work on the score keeping, thing. No I have not read that book, actually I have not even heard of it, do you know who the author is? If not I will just google it later.
