WAW hasn't walked yet, but emotionally dead

[mako]

W called this morning. She wanted some internet password that she had forgotten. I gave it to her and told her a little about the movie I saw and how the dog is doing. Very short, under 5 mins, she was working and said she had to get off the phone. She said she'd call to check in with me later in the week.

I really don't know what the heck I'm doing. She seems to expect that she'll just call me when she feels like it, the times that I've contacted her the past couple weeks she sometimes doesn't even respond. It's her world, I'm just playing a tiny part in it right now, and I don't get to play unless she wants me to, mostly just when she wants something. Guess that tells me there's no point to contact her?

Yes, I must detach, stop dwelling on all this BS and just let her go. Easier said than done though, and I am trying to...

I do feel I'm reaching the point that, even if she called and said she was coming back tomorrow, I'd be skeptical and know we need to go very slowly, I will need to have a lot of trust rebuilt if we ever were to reconcile. In the past I'd have taken her back with open arms the second she chose that, now I am less sure. I suppose that's progress.