WAW hasn't walked yet, but emotionally dead

[mako]

Thanks all for the support.

sandi: don't worry, it wasn't you that brought me down, just the sitch, I felt down before I saw your post. I appreciate the advice though, I know if I'm not realistic I'll just be disappointed.

Sir: in my head I know I have the right attitude and that the DB tools can help me get through this regardless of the outcome. Problem is the heart overtakes the head a lot of time. It's ironic that I'm trying to be more open and honest with my feelings and emotions at the same time that the feelings and emotions are most painful and it'd feel better to just shove them aside.

wawpioneer: glad you got out too. GALing is great and necessary. When this all started I mostly moped around for a week, wallowing in pain frustrationa and self pity. That did me no good at all. It's great to get out and have a good time. I enjoyed the movie and had fun tonight, so I'm in a good mood.