You have had a really good attitude for being so early in your sitch. Good work! You are smart for posting your thoughts. Keep it up!!
And I love your sense of humor.
I'd suggest to work on detaching if you haven't already. Check out this link.... coping.org's detaching This was a great help to me. Lovingly detaching is something you might've already come across... it is SO important.
I know it's hard when you end up on that roller coaster again. Try to stay off of it. It is very challenging, I know, but you can do it. You are clearly a strong and wise woman.
Peace and love, f21
Me: 37 M: 14 yrs Separated 10/06; Filed for D 12/07 Life is good.