W was in good mood but I've been a wreck inside. I haven't made much progress last 24hrs but haven't slipped much either. W just noticed that I was 'not myself' today.
I have some observations that I would like opinions on:
I KNOW W is filtering info from me. I KNOW she is selectively deleting sent/recieved emails, texts, cellphone calls. If she wasn't trying to hide something why would she do this? Should I just ignore it?
I have reason to believe that there is a POSSIBILITY that she wasn't with the friend that she said she was with on thur night. Found that # she texted asking for directions is a male's cellphone (called # from payphone and male answered, male on voicemail message) but not sure if this is her friend's boyfriend or someone else. What has me confused is that this male's # is in her contacts listed under "KAY". (never heard this name mentioned before). Why would she have her friend's boyfriend's cellphone number in her contact list under a different name or maybe these are his initials (male's voicemail states "this is Kevin")? Why did she text "friend's boyfriend cell" and not her friend's cell?
There are other details that really have me confused as what to think about all this. W has denied repeatedly that she is 'cheating' to myself and C. Maybe this depends on W's definition of 'cheating'....I know I shouldn't be snooping but things just seem like they aren't completely adding up, I see some suspicious actions in W, especially no rings and her increased attention to how she looks, her makeup/clothing when leaving house. I don't want to be moving out next week if there is an A going on (albeit probably an EA and not a PA). I will be basically 'handcuffed' for 60 days. I still have a few days before I HAVE to make the move although I already paid for apt and utility hookups. $$ is not on the top of my priority list. I don't want to be a 'lamb led to slaughter' but I don't want to blow this out of proportion and lose all chances with reconciling with W either.
W was in good mood and talking to me for a change last two days. I've been backing off and giving her calm, though. She has changed her status of wanting me to stay completely away for next 60 days to spending a couple of days in 'our' house watching kids on weekends 'for the kids sake'. Just a few days ago, the status was 'stay as far away as possible next 60 days'.
Any thoughts or opinions on this stuff?
Last edited by jaBRWok; 12/02/0703:08 AM.
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