Still reading WWLTM. VERY good book--I am definitely backing off the "man" thing while I do this work on me. I think I do need to feel all of it, even the pain and loneliness. There has to be some reason that all of this happened, something that I am meant to learn now...
I was overcome by the Women's Breakfast this morning. A friend had invited me a few weeks ago (actually a mom of S's friend). She knows of the sep because of the kids. Now, she didn't know what the format was going to be. But it ended up having entertainment by a family with 7 prodigy kids, who sign and play strings. Very beautiful. But the speaker...
She told of her struggles this past year, being betrayed by her spiritual mentor. She felt as though she was "walking through the shadow of death," and that she had to learn to do things His way rather than her way. Another gentle message to Let Go. The woman sitting next to me and my friend shared her own story of living through infidelity--and now being happy with her life and the two precious gifts of her granddaughters.
I have never considered myself a religious or even spiritual person...but there have been so many people put on this path to help me through all this mess along the way... and always when I seem to need it the most. How much coincidence can there be?
Another woman who I work with was also there--she has sent me cards and told me she would pray for me over the last months. It was a nice surprise to run into her. After the program, she walked over a centerpiece gift for me. I still had tears running down my face.
So, a surprisingly good day. Something I needed after yesterday. I feel stronger. I mentioned the strong response I had with MIL. She said that she has wanted to go to church, but didn't want to go alone. So, I'll be going tomorrow. Who knows what will happen?
