Thanks Wooglint...Yeah, I have the paper and online version of my journal. You are definitely right it is the comments that really help.
I am getting on track...I don't know why but every time I am about to be around WAW I get in the right frame of mind. No matter how I feel hour before. Speaking of which...I better get ready to get 5D...get my head on right. Her being down yesterday over what has to be our meeting Thursday has raised my spirits. I really think she is starting to look beyond today. I know I can live without her. I also know I do not want to. If I were to make a list of positive/negatives to consider her again, the positive side has a lot to offer. So, I am not quitting. I just know I have to detach for myself and 5D. I also know this gives me my only chance. Almost backwards logic.
I do not know why but I am really confident that she will reconsider. Too many small signs that show it. Like running her hand through my hair 3-4 times. She absolutely did not have to do that. And for someone who has not touched me or let me touch them since we separated, this has got to something.
