Sending some (((hugs)) your way.. Im so sorry that she is doing this and saying such horrible things.
Of course you still love her, that won't go away overnite. Don't be so hard on yourself. All its going to take is a lot of time, the pain will probably never fully go away, but you will go on with or without her. Stay strong for your daughters, they will need you right now.
She doesn't deserve you.
tal
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.