I know he is a wreck...or at least he seems to be. I guess in the back of my mind I fear that he plays his emotions on me so that I continue to hang on or in hopes I will fix things for him and s15. I guess I am paranoid. It is hard not to be, especially not knowing if he is still involved with MOW.
I woke up this morning to discover 2 missed calls and a tm from him in the middle of the night. My phone was on silent so I slept through it all. H has to work all day and night today...so I probably won't see him until d12's swim meet tomorrow (unless it gets cancelled due to weather).
Snodderly, I just don't know what to think. A few months ago I really thought he was missing home and would pull through this, now I am not sure.
I feel like he can't figure it out and never will. He must really love this woman. Perhaps it is just the holidays that are bringing him down right now. When he called yesterday he said that he wanted to do some shopping. He then said he only had to shop for the kids and me.
Not sure what his counseling schedule is. He hasn't told me too much about it. Just last sunday when he was here and he said he was so messed up and that he was getting help. My H can manipulate so I don't know how these sessions will go. I hope the C sees through him and helps.
So, I am off to run some errands. I have to work a few hours later myself so I need to get something done this morning. Should be interesting to see how the weekend plays out, although I find myself obsessing less and less about it.
Just sitting back and watching it unfold.....
Hope all is well with your father. He is in my prayers and so are you.
