WAW hasn't walked yet, but emotionally dead

[mako]

Interesting interaction today. As noted above, I decided not to contact W, let her initiate. But something came up...

I think I mentioned above somewhere that we recently found out my uncle, who was always great to me and W, is addicted to crack...well today I found out from my mom that he has really spiraled downhill in a bad way, nearing rock bottom. This really affected me, I love him and felt really sad about it.

I needed to get some of this stuff off my chest, but...I haven't told any of my friends about my uncle, didn't really want to open that can of worms, so I wrote W an e-mail...explaining what's been going on with uncle and my feelings about things with him. I said at the end "You don't need to respond, I just needed an outlet and didn't know who else I could tell."

She called about 2 minutes after I sent it. We had about a 20 minute conversation about him and how we feel about it. No R talk. It was nice, I hadn't shared something personal like this with her besides R talk in a long time. I don't know if she felt anything, but I felt a nice connection with her because of it.

So, it may have been backsliding to contact her, I'm going to go to dim mode now, but it turned out alright I think. I was glad she called me right away, she didn't have to, and it felt nice to just talk to her about something meaningful in my life besides R talk. If nothing else it shows she's still willing to be a friend for me, something I wasn't entirely sure about.