Long and bumpy road

[blindsided1]

SO2, I read your posts. Thanks for posting on mine. Holy cow. I hope I can learn from you. It sounds like you have been doing this a while and I only have 1 month under my belt and I am already feeling used. I am 10 weeks pregnant. My H left me at 6 weeks. He was talking to someone at work that he had known only for a couple weeks, moved out and into her home with her 2 children after knowing her 3 weeks. She pays his rent (because most of his paycheck goes to me for bills) and even paid his tuition. At first, I was really sad that he left me for OW, but I feel now that he was unhappy and he found someone who he knew would let him move in and start taking care of him. He really can't take care of himself. I handled all the bills, everything. My counselor said that he's someone that needs someone to take care of him, but then ends up resenting it. That is exactly how he is with his Mom. I should have know, for pete's sake. He finds ways to see me, but the purpose is for sex. This morning it was very clear. He came to my house at 5:30am on his way to school and immediately wanted sex, I gave it to him. He hung around for about 10 minutes and then split. I haven't heard from him. It's really hard for me to not have sex with him. I love him, I miss him and somehow I think he is going want me more. But, if I think with my head, I know that is not true. He is definitely Cake eating. He gets to have a new toy (OW) and still keep the door open. My problem is, I have no balls! Sorry for the fowl language, but how else can I really put it? I have to figure out a way to get some strength. I would love it if we could be there for each other. Read my post and comment and I'll do the same for you. Where in Calif do you live? I'm in Southern Calif. How old are you and how long did you know you XH? Let me know.