Thanks for stopping by. You are not going to believe this:
H gets home 2 hours later than he said. I don't know where he was all day. He shows up, hugs and kisses D18, shakes bf's hand, and comes in the kitchen where I am cooking and kisses me on the cheek and pats me on the behind. It was sickening.
I think he'd been drinking with DN before he got home, but I'm not sure.
He ate dinner with us and then got on the computer and the kids and I went to do a bit of shopping and get a movie. When we get home he's in the shower, goes to sleep and never even comes out to tell the kids goodnight.
Hope, sometimes your H and mine sound so much alike. I will never forget last Christmas Eve my H and I were in the bathroom talking so the kids wouldn't hear and I told him I knew he had given OW the jewelry and he almost passes out and then starts pointing his finger in my face and telling me he hates me.
There is so much garbage in our history of this MLC mess. I don't know how long it would take to heal from it all. I'll never forget how that felt. I ended up lying on the floor sobbing!
My foot isn't getting any better. I know it's time to insist something new. I'm just afraid it's surgery and I need my job and I can't be off my feet and do it. The physical therapy place my doc referred me to isn't on our insurance and the one the insurance told me about is for hearing problems and the other is very far away. So, I guess I'll drive up there next week and see what they have to offer. Blah. No good options.
What I can't figure out is does he really want to leave or does he get a rush on thinking about it. He does get off on hurting me, I think. I don't think there is an OW. Is he in replay still and wanting to withdraw or what the heck? The anger is so bad, so bad. He had a very small spell of daylight. I wonder if we'll see that again for a long time? I feel trapped.
Hugs and mistletoe, Sun
"Tell me what you plan to do with your one wild and precious life." Mary Oliver
