Back in April, when my W gave me the whole ILYBNILWY thing, I did quite a bit of reading. Something that might help you out is Mort Fertel's book. It's about 12 bucks at Amazon and has a pretty good approach to "making love" again. Not sexually, but reigniting the feelings. He's got a concept -- fake it til you make it. Act like you're in love. Do things because your H likes them. Things like that. It's not terribly original, but it makes a hell of a lot of sense. You seem to really want to love your H again. It also seems that your H needs to meet you a little bit more than it sounds like he's meeting you.
Anyway, I'm whipped, so I'll stop now, but give that book a try. It might help you.
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Me: 36 W: 35 2 D: 9 and 5 T: 16 years M: 12 10/4/06: Bomb 10/5/06: Ended A 4/22/07: ILYBNILWY