I held it together through the meeting today--no tears. No smiles, but no tears. He got angry at a few things, but that was to be expected. We didn't touch on the house today all that much--that will be the next meeting, 2nd week of Jan.
Nikki, that may be another option. We didn't bring it up today, but I told my L about my thoughts--she said that she would come up with the many different scenarios, and we can work from there.
I also thought of 2 new things today: --I asked him to get disability insurance to pay the bills if he gets sick or can't work --I want to reduce my work days back to 3x/week next school year. I was "encouraged" to go full-time when the opportunity came up for last school year but had major reservations. I had been 3x/week for 6 years, with full benefits. H told me that he would help, we could make it, etc.....little did I know that the affair had started--could he have seen all this that long ago? I don't know, but I want and need that time now to take care of my kids and keep the household going, now that I am alone with it all. We'll see that his L does with that.
We finished and he was out of there pretty quick. After he and his L left the room, I broke down with mine for about 5 minutes, then got it back together.
Right after, I had to get home to pack up the kids and bring them to the meeting place for the weekend. No drama. So, alone in the house for now. I have plans tonight, then a Women's breakfast tomorrow with a friend, then get away for the overnight on Sat (I hope).
About 1/2 way through Women who Love Too Much. So much reads like my current sitch, but it doesn't fit with the previous 20 years....I'll have to talk with the IC about that.
Off to get my mind on better things--karaoke with friends from work, maybe a sleep-over :0)
