Journaling: my thoughts of today Last night, I accepted his invitation; gcan you come overh, thinking ejust let it happenf. Tell you the truth; I didnft want to be alone at the time. I went over played with my son (D6 was sleeping already), watched a movie ecarsf and H and I had nice conversation about ewhy do you like this movie. I felt relaxed with him even though only several days ago, I was so mad, sad and crying. I felt he enjoyed my company and honestly I think we both had good time. I didn't think too much of sleeping in his bed through the night and I was OUT after took sleeping pill. Both of us didn't want kids to know we were sleeping in the same bed, so I got dress before kids woke up and I told kids that I came over a little early to pick them up.
No matter how much he hurts me and the marriage is not going forward, I enjoy being with him. I hate him for what he is doing but I still love him. Where my ego went cam I being door mat?
Me:31 H:29 D:7 S:2 M:7y Together:8y found out his A :07/07 bomb:11/01/07 s: 11/15/07 OW-1 is out of state; other female friends around first thread
