True, I have amazed myself that yes I can get on without him. Rekindled old friendships and gone on to do new things. the world keeps on turning. but obvioulsy wish he was still part of the equation.
It is hard not to become obsessed with what he is up to but I know it is pointless and my energy is better spent on myself and my daughter...still hard.
To get a life I have started looking for a place for us to live and looking for a job (took a year off to be with my d as a stay at home mom), making friends and having some happy moments which I never felt would happen so soon. It is hard to act happy infront of my h but I no longer question him. It is more of a greeting and that is all at this stage.
He is coming to see d tomorrow and that is always difficult. Seeing him happy with her makes it difficult to understand why he does not just give in and come home.
