All Hope is lost/Help - Part 2

[Evie]

Azhira, thanks so much for posting my thread for me, much appreciated. I was up until nearly midnight last night trying to do it, sssooooo frustrating.

Anyways, no I didn't respond to his email or call or text, I wasn't playing mind games and I can't give a reason for not answering. I was really pleased that he had taken the time to write such nice things, I suppose I didn't know how to respond?, I didn't know what to say. I seem to get a greater response from him if I don't immediately answer but that wasn't the reaon I didn't.

H could very easily avoid seeing me if he wanted to, but he doesn't. He dropped S1 off from his activity and came into the home for 25 mins, very chatty, mainly talked about D1 in france and work!!! I always ask how his day has been but never ask about his life. He hardly asks about my day, but thats ok by me. I'm trying to be more distant, but he wont let me!! He keeps popping up. He treats me with respect and as a friend, except we don't go out for a beer and a curry!!!

I'm glad you think I'm less hostile, I didn't think I was hostile, but thanks for pointing that out, I hope he didn't pick up on that so much and I hope I don't come across as cold to H, difficult to know how to react to him. I know its way too soon for him, I miss him, i don't miss the atmosphere, the r as friends is better, do you think they miss us?

H has just sent me a txt telling us to enjoy putting up the xmas tree tomorrow. So i have replied inviting him to help/watch/referee the boys.. i said we have the mulled wine, just bring some mince pies....i'll let you know the response in a minute..ok he replied and said he may well do, phew i took a risk with the invite, thought he would say no, 180 for him if he does help, because he never has in the past...

Thanks for reading, any comments welcome.

How's that baby of your Azhira?

X Eve