It is hard to let go but I have realized that to him I don't exist. I have wondered if I should confront the ow or her partner (if he still exists as they may have decided to mutually dump the partners)but I think that would be counterproductive.
I have been focusing on my baby and looking for an apartment to rent. I have never lived on my own or even spent one night alone. This all feels like a bad dream. Nothing I do can change his feelings for her!!! I knew deep down that she was a threat but I trusted my H so much. Part of me wants all this to end so I can start again and find someone out there that will appreciate and love me but the other part of me wishes that my h would just come home. Everyone keeps on telling me there is more than one lid for a pot.
I feel like the longer I wait the more rejected I feel. The question that rings through my head is "what if he never mants to come back?" - I feel like I am setting myself up for disaster. I would never become involved with anyone while I am still legally married so that means I will continue to feel lonely until he files for D or comes home.
feels like it really is the end. never thought i would be a statistic!!!!!!!!!!!
