In all fairness, I can't say I wouldn't have used my Corri powers to turn the argument any way I wanted to benefit myself, if needed. But I believe I addressed this point earlier. I wasn't being honest. With him or myself.
And again... respect was missing and so was trust. It had dwindled. I remember the exact moment is left for me... but I just didn't know, then... how critical that loss was, and how it was going to affect the rest of my M.
I married him knowing he didn't trust me. That was incredibly naive on my part. Sigh. Ah well. 20/20 hindsight and all.
I started pulling myself out of LD land when I found empathy for my H. I understood what he must have been feeling, and I HATED that he was feeling that because of me. I didn't like how that made me feel about me. So I worked on changing.
There is a difference between what a lot of people say (or think) they want, and what they really want. And I'd say a majority of those people are those people who don't bother to really figure it out. Test it out.
