Still Tryin's new thread 2

[S.T. _I Made It!]

Thanks Nikki! and your welcome! ya, definitely take some new pictures I'd love to see them.

ya, I tried to ignore it. still haven't remembered to ask H what in the world he told s9.

The fishies are still tiny. about a fingernail size if that (if you trimmed your fingernails, and what you cut off, that size) of the first batch. I've got 3 in a holder thing inside the tank. The mom was really beating up the dad on this next bunch. I actually put him with the babies, but he wasn't very happy with that either, so put him back in. He's okay, but kinda nipped up. The mom has about 6 babies left from the last batch. Soooo, lotsa fun. I even have two plants that bloomed a flower. more like a 1 petal lily the size of my fingernail, but still.

gonna finally do something today, going to a womens thing at church my friend invited me to and paid for, and I'll be taking the kids to a play place. Didn't want to ask H again to watch kids since he did twice this week. although he IS their dad, but I still feel scared to ask and his reaction getting annoyed. So I thought I'd just plan for them to get bbysat and pay 25 bucks, and I told him he could do whatever he wanted that night, have some nice rest or go out. So hopefully he's happy about that.

I was kinda upset last night. He told me about his work xmas party a week ago and I said, why do you always tell me so late. Well, I got my mom to come (which she was planning to do sometime) and watch the kids (it is a 3 hr drive for her). Then he tells me last night after I mention the party that we're not going. i said huh? he said no one else is and he never told me we were. I said we go every year when I'm not in Wichita. It's like the one time I get to dress up a year. He thinks it's lame, but I kinda enjoy it. Sooooo, it made me feel bad. he said we would still do something. then later he mentions that we could shop for the kids xmas during that time. ugh.

well, I really hope that we do something fun and I can dress up. This is where we have more problems I think. We hardly go anywhere, so when we do, it's usually something he wants to do not me. I'd actually like to go watch people I know sing Handel's Messiah... but there is NO way H would do that. Not that I think that's a blast to do, but I like attending those kinds of things at least once every couple years. I used to be in them in college and performed all the time, but he hates musicals, and all that stuff. although he does like grease.

okay, now I'm rambling. I need to quit venting on here so much, and I need to point out positive things. that might take me a while to think about. haha.