October 18, my husband of almost 7 years (December 2 is our anniversary) came home from work, asked if we could talk and proceeded to tell me that he didn't want to be married anymore, without much else of a reason. He also said that he felt he couldn't bring me around because people had "issues" with me, again without much explanation. He continued to tell me that when he goes out he does not think of himself as married and has tried to meet someone but then can't go through with it. He said he doesn't want me around more than he does want me around, and that he just wants his space. I mentioned counseling and he said, "We'll go in, the doctor will ask why we're here, and I'll say 'I don't want to be married', he'll look at you and say 'there you go' and that will be the end of it." If that's not bad enough this is the third time he has said this, (2003, 2005, now) all right around our anniversary and the holidays and each time I found out he was with someone else I can only assume there will be this time. Each time I have moved out and completely upheaved my life while he lives his life exactly how he wants. Each time we've gotten back together and things are great, then we blindly fall into the same routine. A friend of mine informed me of a profile on a dating website that said he was divorced (along with a b.s. bio), neither of us have filed for anything. After all that, crazily, I still want things to work and am willing to do anything, but I cannot give up, I won't give up.
M 29/H32 M 7yrs/1 dog Bomb 10/18 M in apt 11/13/ H in the house 1st now
