Forgot to add. I did tell him I didn't expect him to always bring the kid down, just that I'm still feeling very panicky. (And I am avoiding MIL like the plague right now.) I had a suspicion that was asking too much.
I texted xh an apology...said I was sorry if he felt I was snippy, just that I'm feeling very hurt. (Maybe I was? Who knows...) Told him I miss spending time with him, it just hurts. I told him I wish we could take DS clothes shopping tomorrow. xh responded he would like that. I asked if we could see how I felt tomorrow, because I didn't want to start a fight if I'm in a weird mood. xh said that would be fine. (It's been nearly a week since we've hung out much at all. Maybe time to spend some nice time together, then pull back again? Sorta modified LRT? Just thinking out loud.)
So.
I already made some other plans. Seeing a movie tonight with friends. (Wow. I haven't been to the movies over a year and a half!) I've been interacting some with a guy friend, and the name seems to have caught his attention, if only just a little. I forgot, I made plans awhile back to go hiking on Sunday. I need to double-check that he can still watch the baby. I also really need to call my friend HS. Haven't spoken to her in awhile.
Eating is better. Not great, but at least I don't feel like I'm choking on the food. Appetite still kind of iffy.
