Okay, so last night really wasnt that bad until I got home. I really couldnt sleep..but what else is new. I have been thinking about what I need to do to make me happy and how I can get there. I have decided not to contact her and just focus on me, go out and have some fun. Dont get me wrong, I would love for her to come back to me but I can not focus on that. I need to focus on me, find out who I am and what I like to go again. Make myself attractive, fun and up to do anything. I am going to go shopping tomorrow and buy some new clothes, going to start tanning and continue to workout. I will no longer turn down requests to go out with friends or the other females. I will continue to work on my issues and weaknesses. I have enrolled in several classes for next quater and I am just going to focus on my life.
