Thanks Jeanette thats just what I'll do. I have a small gift from s and I did get a cake but only because I still want things to be normal for our 4 year old son. I just emailed my H to tell him that I have found a lawyer and I need to just pay the retainer but I still haven't heard back from H. I'm so nervous and scared about the divorce but it's what H wants so I have no choice. I have been a stay at home mom for 4 years now and before that I was a receptionist so I'm really worried about how I'm going to support s and I. I think I am going to go back to school and get a career on the advice of my L but I'm just so scared about what will happen to s and I. Right now we live in a house with a big backyard that my s just loves and I hate the idea of moving him into an apartment with no backyard. I grew up in an apartment and I really loved the fact that H and I bought a house for our son to grow up in but now I guess it's back to an apartment and I know that my son will be upset and he wont understand why we cant live in a house. I hate my H for what he's doing to our s. Not only did son lose his dad (h hardly ever plays with s anymore) but now he's going to lose his house and backyard. I just feel bad for my son.
