Ouch! Thought I was so much stronger!

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Continuation... BACKSLIDING!!!

Me: I cant beleive you dont want to spend any time at all with D. Have you thought about how that would make her feel?
Her: Ive spoken to her about it and she's fine with it.
Me: You really dont want to spend time with D just so you can go see OM?
Me: Do you love him?
Her: I wouldnt say I loved him.
Me: Do you love me? Have you lost feelings for me?
Her: You know I will always love you H4C. I just think I have lost some feelings for you. I have so much resentment and hurt. I dont think you and I are at the same place.
Me: W I realize that you have resentment. I felt the same way when you first left. I think if we can go to a SBT, we can bring back the love.
Me: Why do you resent me so much?
Her: You were not ready when we were in counseling. You had girls lined up to take my place, you [censored] on me the entire time. I gave my life and so many tears during that time and I feel like I was just being [censored] on.
Me: W I was honest with those girls that I was trying to reconcile with you.
Her: I just know I dont want to start things up right now. My heart and mind just thinks it would be so painful. I dont want it to be me shitting on you.
Me: Have you truly let me go?
Her: I feel like I have moved on. My feelings are just not the same as they were. I have such a guard up with you. Its like I love you but fear and hurt prevent me from doing anything about it.
Me: What if we go to a SBT counselor?
Her: Do you understand how much time and money we spent on counseling? It never got us anywhere. We were never on the same page. Plus you had girls waiting in the wings.
Me: I didnt have girls waiting in the wings! I was honest with them that I was trying to reconcile with you. I spent every single weekend with you W!


SOmeone please provide some insight her...