Long and bumpy road

[Startingover2]

I know you both are so right. I had to keep coming on here last night to get reassurance. I guess I am the classic codependent. Why do I feel so lost without this selfish, dysfunctional man? Thank you so much to you both.

I had a decent sleep. Not great. I secretly kept waiting for my goodnight text that never came. Like I said, he is probably digging his heels in. Then I started having the regret thoughts: what if he now goes running to OW because I rejected him? I wonder if he told her about our fight and she is doing backflips now.

Now I have to repeat this over and over because I am feeling so weak:

I will be fine. The baby will be fine. I have my home and my children. I have good friends and family. I don't need him financially or emotionally to do this. He is an alcoholic with anger issues. I don't want his anger anymore. Why would I want to be with someone that thinks so little of me that he wants other women on the side? That thinks so little of his family? Put a smile on your face today and go on with your life. Let him be alone. You will be ok.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.