I'm a planner and problem solver by nature. So, I've turned that to looking towards a future on my own. I've been looking at houses in areas close to my current home. Thinking about what I would do differently with furniture, etc.
In some scary strange way it scares me that a part of me is looking forward to it. Maybe it's just a sign that some closure either way will feel better.
I haven't tried to kiss the W, hug her or anything. Any physical contact has been hers alone. Man do I miss it. She used to be very touchy feely. Cuddles, kisses, etc.
