HSB, thank you for taking the time to post. I know there are many ways I have become stronger since I began this journey. So many things seem very unimportant now and I see that as a permanent change in me. But I feel I have a long way to go to really feel strong. I feel so broken and discarded. It has made me very vulnerable and hesitant to be hurt again.

I agree that if we get through this in body and mind we are a success. However, I still would like to hear from others who have reconciled, esp. 25+ years of m. There just doesn't seem to be many at all. It's too bad that more of the MLC'ers don't post here--the one's who like Paul have made it through. Their insights, like his are invaluable in understanding.