New to Piecing -- again

[peaceful_spirit]

I am not dependant on my H. But before the bomb, I was VERY emotionally dependant on him. But when he moved out, I learned how to live alone and raise my boys alone. I got strong. I learned that life was going to be okay without H... though I was sad.

H had a VERY bumpy return home. There were many back & forths. He had a VERY hard time cutting ties with OW. But with him still living in his appartment, I didn't feel like I had that much to lose. The kids were already used to him being out of the house (they are 3 and 4).

But now that he has moved back home, and has been home for about 6 months now (not all good - and almost moved out again at my request), I worry that if H were to ever leave again, my kids would be CRUSHED. When this first happened, they were too young to understand it. BUt now, almost 2 years later, S4 would have a really hard tiem with it. So, that is my fear. So, there... I've isolated it... I am afraid of my kids getting hurt, now that they are old enough to sort of get it.

I am not dependant on him financially, though our joint income does help - A LOT.

Thanks for asking those probing questions. It helps to really figure out what I am afraid of.